"Do or do not. There is no try" - Yoda: November 2009

So ty and i had an amazing day today, we went to this awesome place in chandler that is an indoor play area, that he loves and we spent 4 hours there having fun. And ty was happy all day and we had a really good time. I came home tonight, put ty to bed and read all of the crap mail that we get and one was from his doctor place that he goes to. As everyone knows, ty was born with a cleft lip and pallate. When ty was born the nice nurses gave me all of this really helpful information about welfare and every state program that i could possibly use, (which i obviously needed at the time). one of the things they gave me was a brochure for a place called CRS which St. Joseph's hospital is a part of and it's also a state funded program. If your child has a birth defect you can take them here and they will help the child until they are 21 with the birth defect related issues. And i think like 80% of the people got everything for free (surgeries and everything). It may sound like just a doctors office with specialists, but this place has every type of doctor in one building and they all work together on the patients, with one file and they talk to each other and stuff. They are really good doctors too, they all have regular offices somewhere else and come in to CRS a couple times a month. Ty's cleft effects him in so many ways that these are all of the following people he sees there:

1. plastic surgeon

2. ENT

3. Speech Therapist

4. Dentist

5. Orthodontist

6. regular pediatrician

7. Genealogy councilor (for parents and for him when he's older)

all of these people work with his cleft and all of them are fantastic. About 6 months ago we got a letter saying that Az. was cutting the budget a bit and that we would start having to pay co-pays just like a normal doctor. Which is fine, i don't like the place because it's free, i would probably pay more then a regular doc. visit because of how awesome it is. (btw, not everyone has to pay co-pays, just the "rich" people...yeah i qualify as rich...dumb) So we had a couple doctors appointments, paid co-pays and then some, and today i get a letter saying that State funding has completely been suspended for CRS and we will be dis-enrolled as of 12/1/09. But people who still qualify for welfare can still go, for completely free. Now i don't care about the people who are on welfare, they obviously need it, just like i did before, but i was paying anyways why am i now not allowed to go?? Ty still needs to have so much work done and i am so upset that i have to go get different doctors, and that all of the stuff wont be coordinated. We will probably still go to his ENT but it is literally impossible to go to his plastic surgeon because he doesn't accept private insurance. I feel like we have to start all over again and it's sad that the state are cutting the wrong things. I know they cut daycare funding, foster care funding, health care, and my mom who works for the state took a big pay-cut too. Those are all really important things and i feel like they are being stupid.

I guess i just feel like we had a plan to take care of everything until he was 21 and now we dont have that option and i am kind of scared to take him anywhere else, i just want everything to be fixed for him.

This weekend was full of pictures, just the way i like it. On friday i went to see 2 cast memebers from New Moon and it was freaking sweet. I went by myself because tickets were $75 and jake had work. I got a picture with both of them (but i wont have it until friday) and then they did a question and answer session which was super fun.