baptise or baptize??

So i haven't gotten Tyler baptized yet and it seems like a never ending problem with my family, which it should not be. My whole childhood i was forced to go to church. I use the word forced because it is true. I loved going to church and at one point i spent 4 days there a week between all of the activities i was in, but honestly i only went for the socializing and that it got me out of the house. Well when i got a little older i would ask my parents once in a while (like once every 4 or 5 months) if i could stay home from church for various reason, i was sick, too tired ect. and every flippin time they said no. We would literally get into yelling matches about going to church and it was ridiculous. In high school i would have football games on Friday night and band competitions on Saturday and would be exhausted on Sunday morning, the last thing i want to do is get up early and go listen to a boring sermon. I think my parents resistance really changed my views on things as far as church goes. I mean they are great parents, but every parent makes mistakes and i feel like this is one they messed up on. You should never force a child to go to church (especially all of the time) if they don't want to, it is essentially forcing your opinions on someone which pisses people off.

Well my whole family is extremely involved in the church, not just my immediate family but my extended family as well, i have several different pastors in my family and the ones who aren't pastors might as well be. They spend all of there time on committees, doing church activities, ect. Which is fine, but the point of my blog is Tyler's baptism. I am constantly asked about baptising Tyler and i have always put it off and we are having a family reunion next weekend and i just got asked again to have ty baptised there. I decided it was finally time to make a decision, which i think i made a long time ago. I told them i didn't think that Ty should be baptised because of James' religion, he is Catholic. Even though that is not the full reason it is the majority of it and ties in to my thought process on this. I know that during the baptism as a parent you have to agree to be a good parent and raise the kid they best you can (duh) and then you also have to agree to bring them up in the church with the church beliefs. Some people say that that is not what being baptized means, but they have you agree to it, so that is what it means. I do not want to be the parent who says, "hey we are united methodists in this family, so that is what we are teaching you, that is what you will believe." Especially with his dads side of the family being catholic, even though the two religions came from the same idea they are way different. It would be so wrong of me to have him baptized and stand up there and say that i will raise him to be a christian if i don't plan on doing that. When he gets older i actually plan on doing opposite of that, we are going to make sure ty has knowledge about all of the different religions, and let him go to mass, synagogues, temples, etc. Religion is such an important part of who you are and he needs to figure it out by himself and decide what is right for him.

last twilight post for about 400ish days

i want to write about this not because anyone cares but because it is bothering the heck out of me!

James' mom got me tickets to see Eclipse at 9pm before the movie came out and since we had already gotten tickets for the midnight show i got to see Eclipse twice in a row. I was super excited because with New Moon (my least favorite book of the series) i was so excited the first time that i liked it better the second time because i let it sink in and could enjoy it more. Eclipse is really the peak of all of the books it has major conflict, romance, intensity, passion etc so i was really excited to see this film. I felt like the first movie was on a crap budget so it was great but not spectacular, New moon had a crap load of more money in it so it was obviously a step up and i loved it, so i expected Eclipse with all of the awesome book material and all of the money to be the best one yet and that is what everybody was saying it was (all of the reviews and such). So during the movie i found myself watching the movie and getting really excited when a good scene was coming up and then kind of being disappointed afterwords. So i get out of the first show and thought to myself, "hmm something is off but i cant tell what it is, I'm sure after the midnight show i will feel better." But then i saw it again and i was so bored, and this is not because i saw it twice in a row. When we got out of the second showing i thought to myself, "man, i liked the movie of course but i don't know why i am not into it as much as i should be." So i slept on it, and i still couldn't put my finger on it, so the next day i read a bunch of reviews of what other people thought, and everyone loved it. I did not find one bad review (from a fan). But then i had an epiphany! I realized that during new moon my heart was racing, i laughed really hard, and even cried at one point. And during eclipse i only chuckled a little, the only time my heart raced was at the beginning when i was excited, and i never once teared up. I was not emotionally connected to this movie at all and that is the problem. Eclipse (the book) has the most emotion out of all of the books and i don't think there was one time during the movie that i felt a strong emotion, or actually "in" the movie.

I'm going to go again in a couple weeks just to see if maybe i was just in a bad mood or something. And don't get me wrong, the movie was great, it flowed well (the only problem i had with new moon) and they kept in most of the great lines and scenes, they did a good job condensing the book, and they acting improved. But if i just would have had the emotional connection i got with new moon and while reading the books i would be a happy girl. I mean that's the whole reason i like the series because of its ability to make me emotional while reading it. I'm still going to see it 1-3 more times in the theater, im still going to buy 3 copies of the movie, and I'm still going to watch it over and over, but i am just a little disappointed.

Since this is going to be my last post about twilight in 400ish days i am going to get it all out...
We have decided to do something different every year for the movies. Last year we went to the mall tour and got a couple autographs, this year we went to LA to the twilight convention, and with the last book being split in to two movies that means we are going to try and do two other things. We have decided to go to Forks for a vacation, we will probably be mostly in Seattle because Ive always wanted to go there but we'll spend a day or two in forks and la push. And then we decided that we are going to go to one of the premiers, which is really insane, you have to camp out on the sidewalk for 4 days. But it will be totally worth it! If they do another convention thing we are going to go to that again too, it was amazing. I am trying to collect as many autographs as i can and hopefully by the time this whole thing is over (in 2012) i will have everybody, i have 11 now so I'm off to a good start.

Breaking Dawn is my favorite book in the series so it better be freaking good! only 504 more days!! :)