Drunken nights

Yesterday James turned 21. I think that is probably enough said but I would like to write more. His mom threw him a party, there were a lot of people and alcohol. It wasn’t totally crazy, but I definitely felt like the only adult there (and Jake too). They have a small pool and people were jammed in to it and wrestling around and throwing people in which is all good fun but there were other things going on that did not make it ok. There was a 3 year old swimming (why the mom let him in there at 10pm with a bunch of drunken people I don’t know, probably because she is related to tori but that is a diff. story.) The kid was getting jumped on and pushed around and kind of ignored. Then the wrestling got out of hand too, I feared for James’s life like 7 times, he was shoved under water a ton buy a big scary drunk guy and it was dumb.
Also I have always believed that when people drink it gives them an excuse to act stupid, even if they are not drunk. That annoys me. Why would you want to be stupid and look like an idiot? Well whatever, maybe I just judge James more because I expect more of him, I want him to “be all that he can be” and he isn’t sometimes. But that is ok, I love him anyways.

today sucks...

I'm having a bad day today. I always have a bad day when something is different about the day. Today ty had a doctor's appointment so i was late to work, which is fine, but ty gets thrown off of his schedule and it really affects him. First of all he hates doctors and i dont blame him, he has had 4 surgeries and has to see a bazillion doctors 3 times a year each, and they always poke him or do somthing that he doesnt like. So when i told him we were going to the doctor, he was not having that. Then when we acctually got to the doctors he had a full on fit crying and crying because he didnt want to see the mean doctors because the "hurt him a lot." : ( There is never anything i can do with that because he doesnt understand that when they are hurting him they are acctually trying to help, that doesnt make sence to a 3 year old. Anyways...the doctor we were seeing today was his plastic surgeon, he is one of the best plastic surgeons in the state so he always has a ton of interns with him which doesnt bother me but when he came in he had 5 other people with him in white coats and it freaked ty out more. The doctor made me hold ty's hands down while he looked in his mouth, Ty hates that, as she should and he screams and crys and probably hates me then i start to cry then look like an idiot infront of the 6 doctors who should be holding him down instead of me. ughhh...So they schedules ty's next surgery, it for his speech, it's kind of complicated and i never knew you could need surgery for speech but he does...So the surgery is on Tuesday. . . like in 6 days. This is a problem for several reasons. Its jake's b-day, I just got back from vacation and shouldnt miss any work, and one of my co-workers will also be gone that day (we only have 3 in our department, so we will only have 1 that day). He is going to stay in the hospital for a night or two so that will be fun...

back from the most magical place on earth

We are back, and I am at work. Awesome. Disneyworld was the best! I really needed a vacation and a break. Actually when my family does a Disney vacation it really isn’t a break, everything is planned extensively and some people think that is crazy but that is the only way I would have it. We don’t wait our time standing in line for rides because we know how to work the system, we know what days are the best to go to which parks, which days certain parks are open early and later. We don’t waist any time and we get everything done. It is really exhausting but the only way to do Disney for our family and way worth it. : ) The things that I was freaking out about really were fine (of course)

1: Ty was almost perfect on the airplane, I bought a ton of stuff to make sure he wouldn’t annoy the rude people who hate kids on the plane, and he didn’t use any of them because Jake’s dad bought us a portable DVD player the night before we left, that was awesome. It’s a freaking sweet one too!

2: I didn’t loose ty! Well actually I did. . . We were in the hotel checking in and ty was in his stroller and the check in lady sucked and was taking her precious time, well my dad looks down at the stroller then up at me and I look down and ty is not in the stroller!! Oh my Gosh! I’ve only be there like 30 seconds and he is gone already! I am a bad mother holy crap! Where is my kid!?!?!? So I kind of panicked for a second and didn’t know what to do but I looked up and ty was just standing in front of a TV that was in the lobby a couple feet away. Ughh. . . that sucked, because then I was thinking the whole time, “ok I know this can happen because it just did, what if it happens in one of the parks?” But it didn’t and everything else was fine.

3: Ty loved all of the characters; he wasn’t afraid of them at all and was the happiest kid in the world to see them. He hugged all of them except Captain Hook, who didn’t want a hug, Lol.

4: It was cool seeing my uncle and his family, my cousins loved ty and they became “friends.” My aunt has a lot of problems mentally and she has been in and out of mental hospitals and stuff for a couple years so my uncle has had a lot of responsibility on him with the kids and stuff. So he wasn’t as fun as he used to be, he was like old. Or maybe I am just older. But he was not what I remember, once in a while I saw a glimpse of what I remember but most of the time he was just a boring old guy.

Overall everything was almost perfect, I am glad to be home though, I like sleeping in my own bed. : )

well F me...

So i have made my self sick stressing out about disneyworld. . . why am i so dumb? i never got stressed before i "grew up"....

It's raining all week in Orlando except for Sunday...ughhh...Will I am off bright and early at 5 in the morning tomorrow...

Disneyworld!!

We’re leaving on Saturday super early for Disneyworld. . . I am beyond excited! : ) My whole family is obsessed with Disney and I haven’t been to Disneyworld in a while. And this is the first time Ty will visit a Disney park and be able to enjoy it (hopefully). We are going with my whole family from my dad’s side, I think there will be 12 of us ages three to seventy-something (that’s sad, I don’t know how old my grandpa is…hmmm). I am an emotional wreck right now because of the following:

1: I am way excited, duh!

2: I am super nervous. . . This is where being a mom sucks. I am really freaked out about the airplane ride over there, it is a long ways and Ty has never flown anywhere before. I think he will be ok, but I don’t want to get stares from everyone when Ty throws a tantrum because he has to stay in his seat for 5 hours. I went over board and bought about $200-$300 worth of stuff just for the airplane, I got everything, crayons, coloring books, reading books, doodle pads, sticker books, hot wheels, things so he can practice tracing and writing etc. Just crap. But I want it to go well, everyone says he might fall asleep, but I don’t think so. We will see.

3: I am still super nervous because I am afraid I will loose Tyler. I know it sounds bad but its something I don’t think people understand fully until you are a parent. Disneyworld is HUGE and kids do not always listen and behave, I like to think that Ty is a good kid and listens most of the time, but what happens if he sees something and just runs off? What happens if I don’t see him and someone takes him? We have been practicing like crazy that he needs to hold my had literally every second we are out of the house, and I got him a new stroller to sit in, which he loves. So we go to the mall a lot and “practice.” I think we’ll be ok.

4: I am sad/happy because my uncle, aunt and 2 cousins from TX are coming! I hardly ever see them and our family is really close so it is weird not to see family members for years at a time. My uncle is/was the coolest uncle ever and we were really close and then he moved to TX when I was 12-13ish which, for me was like a divorce because of the age I was. It was really bad timing and to be honest I cried a lot when he left. Since he moved I’ve only seen him 3-4 times which is horrible. So I am really happy to see him but a part of me thinks that when we leave I will cry (again) because I know I wont see him in a year or five.

I think it will be a good trip overall but i am still kind of stressed out.

"there are monsters under my bed!! "

On Thursday Tyler couldn't fall asleep because his room was scary, Jake and I tried to make it not scary and eventually he fell asleep. Then on Saturday he said his room was scary and there were monsters under his bed. On Sunday he told me that his room was scary, there were monsters under his bed, there were bees in his room, and a lion. He also said that he was afraid of his Elmo blanket (weird). He was genuinely scared so we changed the sheets to Diego so Diego could protect him and no matter what we did we couldn’t get them out. It took him over 2 hours to fall asleep because scary things kept popping up.

So he spends the night at James’ on Mondays (during the summer) so I could go to v-ball and there were not any monsters at james’ house. . . which is good but now I feel like I have a scary house, which is weird because his “house” is in the middle of greenway square and I get scared just driving down the street. . . we will see what happens tonight and see if there are any monsters or anything else.

happy birthday to me!!

so today i am 21! woot woot! it has to be my last big b-day until i am like 30... it's kind of exciting. Even though i have been over the whole partying thing for about 4 years i have to admit i was so excited about being 21 that i went out to buy some alcohol during my lunch... ; ) but i will not have any until after work, because that will be bad.

I honestly think getting drunk is really immature, i dont know why, but i feel like it is a high school thing. Nicole and i were just talking about it actually, we both went through the same thing, we partied earlier then had this like "ah ha" moment where we realized that it is silly and people look rather dumb when they drink.

But with that said i still want to be able to have a drink or two with dinner or after dinner : )

ice cream

One of the best things in the world is to get off early from work and have ice cream with your son!! happy happy times! : )