today sucks...

I'm having a bad day today. I always have a bad day when something is different about the day. Today ty had a doctor's appointment so i was late to work, which is fine, but ty gets thrown off of his schedule and it really affects him. First of all he hates doctors and i dont blame him, he has had 4 surgeries and has to see a bazillion doctors 3 times a year each, and they always poke him or do somthing that he doesnt like. So when i told him we were going to the doctor, he was not having that. Then when we acctually got to the doctors he had a full on fit crying and crying because he didnt want to see the mean doctors because the "hurt him a lot." : ( There is never anything i can do with that because he doesnt understand that when they are hurting him they are acctually trying to help, that doesnt make sence to a 3 year old. Anyways...the doctor we were seeing today was his plastic surgeon, he is one of the best plastic surgeons in the state so he always has a ton of interns with him which doesnt bother me but when he came in he had 5 other people with him in white coats and it freaked ty out more. The doctor made me hold ty's hands down while he looked in his mouth, Ty hates that, as she should and he screams and crys and probably hates me then i start to cry then look like an idiot infront of the 6 doctors who should be holding him down instead of me. ughhh...So they schedules ty's next surgery, it for his speech, it's kind of complicated and i never knew you could need surgery for speech but he does...So the surgery is on Tuesday. . . like in 6 days. This is a problem for several reasons. Its jake's b-day, I just got back from vacation and shouldnt miss any work, and one of my co-workers will also be gone that day (we only have 3 in our department, so we will only have 1 that day). He is going to stay in the hospital for a night or two so that will be fun...