Thank God the economy sucks!

We have gotten so many unexpected RSVP's as a 'no' because of the economy. closer family members who live a little bit away who we completely expected to come, and who want to come cant because they've lost their jobs or cant afford to come out. Dont get me wrong, i feel really bad for them, and wish they could come but it looks like we will have a lot less people then we expected and it makes me so happy, because we had a lot more people to invite then we initially thought.

Right now I am mad, no I am f*ing pissed off. Just now, this guy who is a contractor for our company and probably comes in our office for 2 hrs a month and sits far away and doesn’t even talk to anybody just called me immature and laughed at me twice. This guy doesn’t even know me and while I was having a conversation with someone else he butted his head in and laughed then called me immature, then laughed again. Big huge WTF?!?!?!!? This guy is in his 40’s, what is he doing interrupting me and calling me names like he knows me?????

Maybe this is immature writing about him like this, I should probably forget about it and move on, but seriously what an ass hole.


***side note, i'm getting married next week!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!! : ) : ) : )

smoking

Smoking is one of my biggest pet peeves for the following reasons:

1: it smells really really gross
2: it cuts away from other things, such as work, family time, or just socializing.
3: people who do it keep saying that it’s so hard to quit.

#3 is the topic for today. This is something I found from a website, which I agree with.


Smoking cigarettes is an addiction. It is a physical addiction no different from heroin, alcohol, or any other addiction that a person might have. Just like alcoholic, you need your cigarette to deal with stress. Just like a heroin addict, you are unconcerned about the brutal affects on your health or the money you're spending. If you smoke cigarettes, you're an addict just like the rest of them. You are an addict that has to schedule their life around their next cigarette. You are an addict that has to rush outside every few hours. You are an addict that automatically lights a cigarette after buckling their seatbelt.


Everybody has an addiction at some point in there life, addiction is a chemical in your brain, and it doesn’t matter what you are addicted to, it has the same reaction in your brain. Some addictions have physical effects to, like if you were coming off of heroin, but for the most part addictions are all the same. People are addicted to video games, porn, shoplifting, cigarettes, food, etc. People break addictions everyday and it is just a matter of will power. If you don’t want to quit, no matter what it is, then you don’t. One thing that especially makes me mad (you know who you are) is when people say that I don’t know what it’s like to quit smoking. Like it’s some type of excuse. Of course it’s hard, but people do it everyday. An addiction is an addiction. Period.


PS. ‘Bob’ I still love you, even though you smoke. I just wish you would quit so we could make-out more. ; )

I've been so busy lately i havent gotten the chance to take some pics of ty with my new camera. So yesterday we went to the park and did some. He's such a cutie!

Have you ever had moments in your life, where you know what you want to do with the future and feel like that’s where you belong? They don’t happen very often, most people spend life wondering where they should go, and what they should do. But I know in my heart that within the next year to year and a half I need to:

- have a baby
- quit my job
- stay at home w/kids
- get a part time job

I feel like it’s really what I am supposed to be doing. I am not the stay at home mom type, who can stay home watch the kids, cook, clean but nobody can take better care of my kids and I feel like I’m missing out on so much. At the same time though I am a girl who needs to work, but I just don’t want to waste my time away sitting in a cubical. So the ultimate plan is to stay home with the kids and work a little bit at night. This cant be a sudden move though, it needs to be progressive. So we are going to plan it out, like adults. Luckily since Jake and I both work in call center environments our schedules are pretty flexible, so we can move them to whatever we want.



(Don’t read this if you are a boy and don’t want to know about girly things)
So I went to get my dress altered last night, and have come to find that my boobs have grown. So the dress is too small on the top, but fine everywhere else. Seriously who plans for that to happen? Everyone always tries not to gain weight but seriously how could anyone predict that? Oh well, at least they can take it out. It better fit next week; otherwise I will just have to loose weight so my boobs shrink, and I don’t really have time for that.




On another note, my boss told me that he is not coming to my wedding because he knows that I don’t really want him there. He said, “it was gracious of you but I have to make a smart decision.” I don’t know what to think of this, it kind of makes me laugh. But if I really didn’t want him to come, I wouldn’t have sent him an invitation. I like him as a person, but he is the world’s worst boss. Oh well, that’s less mouth’s I have to feed.

lkanero;haweor

jake and i are getting married in 18 days! what is going on!?!!?!

I have really bad luck with customer service people, like APS, Cox, and especially banks. A lot of people I know think I’m crazy for how much energy I put in to fixing things with companies that work with me, but maybe it’s just because I fight for things and charges that I don’t think are right or are wrong. I think a lot of people just pay whatever people tell them they owe, but not me. Something that is sometimes fun for me is arguing with people that I clearly know more then. 99% of the time I call in to a bank to fight with them they start lecturing about how credit card processing works, like I don’t know, it’s what I do for my job. Of course they don’t know that but it always seems that as soon as I say that credit card processing is my job they say, ‘oh’ and change there tone with me and then stuff gets done. I feel like if I was a regular person they would be screwing me over.

This weekend was crazy and relaxing at the same time. In Friday I had like the worst day ever, I was in a really bad mood, a bad nights sleep, and work sucked! You know, one of those days where you just want to go home, curl up in bed, and go to sleep. Then when I got home I started to feel better, Jake came home and we decided to go get the camera I’ve been waiting to get for a year. I wasn’t going to get it with the crappy lens it came with and get a better lens, but best buy was having a pretty good sale on them so I got the crappy lens, and I am glad I did! (I've decided that i'm not going to put my camera on auto anything until i can get the hang of full manual, i'm not going to get all excited about the camera on auto then try it on manual and suck.)Then we went out to dinner together and came home and jake let me take pictures of him for several hours. Then the next day we did some random wedding things and took more pictures. We went to the park and there was a soccer tournament going on so we watched that for a while, it was cute watching all the little kids playing. Then on Sunday I had my ‘old person’ bridal shower, basically it was all of the old ladies at the church. I hate being the center of attention and opening presents in front of everyone. I think I’ve never liked it. I’m not anti-social or anything but I don’t like everybody looking at me, and watching me. And on top of that I really don’t need all the presents we’ve been getting. We’ve lived by ourselves for almost 3 years now so we have a lot. Most people say that this is a chance to get better stuff to replace our crappy stuff with, and I agree, but I guess I’m not that type of person. I don’t need it and I don’t need other people to buy it for me. But it is what it is. I have to admit that during my embarrassment at the shower I could help but laugh out loud when I thought of all the gossiping going on. It still makes me laugh. Ha. But at the end we got a lot of cool stuff, I think we need to re-organize our kitchen to fit everything.

Today my friend Cyndy is in Disneyland, and it may sound lame but I am super jealous. We haven’t been to Disneyland since Oct. 07 (when Jakey proposed!) I know we went to Disneyworld in the summer, but it’s just not the same. I kind of get homesick if I don’t go every year. People probably think I’m really weird, but it is my all time favorite place to go, ever and I really want to go right now. . . I think we will go this December even though it is 10 months away. Maybe we’ll go sooner... we’ll see.

Here's some cool pics from this weekend...

words cant describe...

you know that place in the morning when you are awake but not up and alert yet? i was in that stage this morning and the news was on, then i heard, "we're here at 28th st. and Greenway where 2 people were shot and died and others possible hurt." I sat straight up in bed glued to the TV in panic, it's James' night with Ty and he lives right there. I was panicing, but yet calm at the same time. All of these thoughts were rushing through my head about weather or not Ty was ok, and of course i couldnt help but to think the worst. The reporter looked like he was standing right outside of James' house, but it was still dark so i couldn't tell. I felt like the reporter took forever to explain the situation, he would not say how old the people were for the longest time. Finally he said that the first guy was like 50 and the other guy was, umm i forget. But they weren't 4 year old boys and a 21 year old. Then the reporter said he was at an apartment complex (James lives in a trailer not an apt.). So i calmed down a little, but i kept thinking of all of these things that could have happened to them so i text my friend, who lives in an apt. complex in the same area and James to make sure everyone was ok (even though i really knew they were) and my friend text back but not James. So i called him, beginning to get freaked out again and he answered and said everyone was fine. So i was glad but then i just started crying. . .the whole thing really shook me up, it was def. something i didnt want to wake up to. It was easily one of the scariest things I've ever experienced in my life.

how did i miss this!!?!?!?!?!??!

So there is a Claire's by my work, nobody is ever there it's in a strip mall so it doesn't get much traffic. I go there probably twice a month to get my glasses and fun chap stick. I havent been since December because of Christmas spending among other things so i didn't want to tempt myself into buying things that i shouldn't. Well i decided to go today because i haven't found the perfect wedding glasses yet, and it was gone!!! omg i was so mad! So i went to bath & body works next door to hit up there sale (!!!) and i asked the lady about Claire's she went on and on about how awesome the sales were, apparently the first week everything was 80% off then after that everything was $0.50!!!!!!! I missed it! everything was $0.50! purses, shoes, glasses! holy gosh!!! AHHHHHH!!!

how do you eat your grapefruit?

i cut mine in half and scoop it out with a spoon. A co-worker of mine peels hers like an orange and eats it like that. Well i am trying to eat my grapefruit and our office ran out of spoons, so i have a fork. It's not working at all. Pretty much a waist of a 1/2 of a grapefruit. . . : (

i just realized that i can now say that i'm getting married next month. . . i think i'm gonna go have a panic attack...

Who cares about terrible twos why did nobody tell me about the ferocious fours?!?!?!?

So apparently most kids go through the terrible two’s stage, everybody heard of it, and usually the child grows out of that stage by 3 or 4 (even though they are called terrible twos, I think they last longer then that). Well Tyler was amazing at that age, in fact it has been by far my favorite age (I know he’s only 4 but oh well) I really wish he could stay about 2 ½ forever! He was an angel. But on his 4th birthday (literally that day) he became extremely difficult to deal with. He has major tantrums, screams and yells hits things etc. If you know Ty, you know that this does not sound like him at all. Remember I wrote about how sucky Christmas was??? Well I thought it was just because he was overwhelmed, but I was wrong, his behavior has continued to be crazy! It’s exactly what I read about with kids in there terrible twos, but worse because he is older, smarter and stronger then a two year old. I started to get really worried that something was wrong, something with him, or me. My mom has witnessed several melt downs and she asked me what was up with him, I told her and she said that I need to ask the doctor to make sure that nothing was physically wrong with him (which is what the internet said) and that it probably isn’t that but just to make sure. Then she said that it might be because of the wedding planning, and that I may not be paying as much attention to Ty as I usually do. This really made me sad, I am really aware how important it is to pay attention to your kid and not just send them to watch TV by themselves or play in there room all the time. So I kind of took that pretty hard. So today we went to the doctor for routine shots (I hate those) and one of the first things that the doctor said was that sometimes around 4 or 5 some kids can kind of regress and be like 2 year olds. I explained everything to her and she said that it was completely normal!! I guess I can be happy about that. My aunt also said that both of my cousins were hard at 4 too, so maybe it’s a genetic thing that determines if you have terrible two or ferocious fours…

on a side note about the wedding...we have gotten several RSVP cards with people on them who we didnt invite, like someone saying "me and my wife are coming but we're also bringing my 40 year old son and his wife even though they werent invited." WTF?!?!?! we are going to probably have way more people then planned.