words cant describe...

you know that place in the morning when you are awake but not up and alert yet? i was in that stage this morning and the news was on, then i heard, "we're here at 28th st. and Greenway where 2 people were shot and died and others possible hurt." I sat straight up in bed glued to the TV in panic, it's James' night with Ty and he lives right there. I was panicing, but yet calm at the same time. All of these thoughts were rushing through my head about weather or not Ty was ok, and of course i couldnt help but to think the worst. The reporter looked like he was standing right outside of James' house, but it was still dark so i couldn't tell. I felt like the reporter took forever to explain the situation, he would not say how old the people were for the longest time. Finally he said that the first guy was like 50 and the other guy was, umm i forget. But they weren't 4 year old boys and a 21 year old. Then the reporter said he was at an apartment complex (James lives in a trailer not an apt.). So i calmed down a little, but i kept thinking of all of these things that could have happened to them so i text my friend, who lives in an apt. complex in the same area and James to make sure everyone was ok (even though i really knew they were) and my friend text back but not James. So i called him, beginning to get freaked out again and he answered and said everyone was fine. So i was glad but then i just started crying. . .the whole thing really shook me up, it was def. something i didnt want to wake up to. It was easily one of the scariest things I've ever experienced in my life.