firends

I have been thinking a lot about friends this month..and have tried to be more aware of who my friends are and who i'm just "facebook friends" with, who i want to keep as a friend for life and who i really dont care to talk to anymore, and what friends i need to keep in better contact with.

I think when you have kids the friends you have who dont have kids dont really understand how your life changes and you kind of have a falling out. I am pretty sure this happens for most people but since it happened to me in high school i think it may have happened more extreme to me. Now that all of my friends are starting to get married and have babies it is happening to them and now they are turning to me for a friendship that hasnt been there in the last 5 years. At first i was excited to have old friends back in my life, but now i feel like they arent true friends because they werent there for me earlier. Why would i want to spend time with someone who only wants to hang out with me now because no one else will hang out with them.

I feel like now that my life has become all about Tyler and Jake i really only want a handful of close friends and then keep the rest as acquaintances. Obviously everyone needs some type of friend support, someone to call when they need to talk, or go shopping with. But i feel like lately i have been wasting my time with fake friendships and i am over it. I would rather spend my time with Ty and jake.


In other news James' wedding is still on...i havent changed my opinion about the situation but there is nothing i can do. But James wanted me to be the photographer so i am going to. I think it will be fun, taking pictures always makes me feel better in any situation so i know it will help me get through the day.