So I have this “friend” from high school, I’m not sure if I wrote about her or not. But her name is Carrie and in high school we were pretty good friends, she is short like me and we have the same shoe size so that was cool. But Carrie is the type of person that naturally just annoys people, you know those people. The ones who just wont stop talking, who call you about nothing and when you hang out with them your mind wants to explode from all the non-stop chit chat. . .Well anyways, she’s one of them. As much as I see that in her, I don’t really care. She is a really cool person and we have a lot in common, so I don’t mind. But a lot of other people do mind and don’t really like to hang out with her. So Carrie is pregnant, (just like everyone else I know) and that is good (sort of) but she calls me a couple months ago and said this, “I want you to do my baby shower with Jessie.”

1: That is not proper etiquette; someone has to offer to throw a shower for you.
2: I don’t really want to plan it with Jessie, she’s not cool.
3: As much as she is my friend and I like her, I am super busy right now and don’t have the time (honestly).

But here I am and the shower is on Sunday, only 2 people have said they can come so we’ll see how many people show up.

I feel like she is completely not prepared at all, I mean nobody is prepared but she seems like she doesn’t want to be prepared. She told me that she wasn’t going to read any baby books or parenting books, and every time I ask her about anything with the baby, she’s just not excited. So I went to Wal-Mart and bought so much stuff for the baby Jake kind of freaked out. I just don’t want her to not have the essentials, and I feel like she doesn’t know what the essentials are. But buying all of that stuff super made me want another baby even more, Ty is 4 and he’ll be at least 5 by the time we have another one and that is getting too far apart, in my opinion.

For some reason New Years Eve/Day has never been really important to me. It’s just another day, and really all it means to me is that I am going to write the wrong year on everything for about 2 ½ months (and I get the day off of work). I guess most people look at it as a new beginning, but isn’t everyday a new beginning? Or for that matter, every hour, minute or second? You can really change your life at any time if you wanted. There are so many people who decide to change something about their life on new years, which is good, but why not any other day. It seems like a copout because it gives you an excuse to do whatever you want to stop doing (or continue to not do) whatever it is you are going to start on New Years Day until that day comes. So if you decide in November that you will start exercising for your new years resolution then you have 2 months to eat whatever you want and sit on your a$$. That is lame. I think the people who think like that are the like 60% of the people who fall through on their resolutions. Which is another thing; it is so ingrained in our heads that the resolutions we make don’t usually work, you are like expecting it not to work so it doesn’t. It sets you up for failure. I guess I just think New Years resolutions are lame overall.

So that is that...


Last night we had a fondue dinner at our house. It was super yummy. Tyler liked it, because we kind of did a movie night where we had the fondue on our coffee table and watched a movie while we ate, he likes that. Melting pot is jake and my favorite place to go, so I tried to have most of the stuff they do, but I didn’t want to make all the different dips, so we just dipped everything in cheese. We had steak, kielbasa, sourdough bread, apples, etc. The steak in cheese was amazing! I would have never thought of it but it was the best!

Tomorrow we are going to the Fiesta Bowl Parade. My family goes every year, so that will be fun.

skateboarding with the boys...

ty and jake went skateboarding this afternoon and i took some cute picks of them. . . : )

christmas sucks. . .

well i guess it doesnt suck, it's acctually usually pretty cool. But having tyler split up between 15 families sucks. He has to go have christmas with:

- james
- james' family
-james' girlfriends 5 mom and dads
- me and jake
- my family
-jakes family

and his birthday is on christmas eve so he also has 2 parties usually around the same time too.

When kids have too much stimulation on little sleep they tend to get so overwhemed and dont know how to control their feelings of the overwhelmedness. Basically Tyler was so tired from opening presents for b-day and christmas with his dad and family from christmas eve that on chrismas morning he woke up and had a meltdown. He said several times that he didnt want to open presents and he didnt want any of his presents until he got a skateboard. Apparently he got one at james' and he would not have anything else but to have one at our house too. (luckly i called james on christmas eve and asked if there was anything that ty really liked that he thought i should get too, so i got a skateboard but ty didnt know that yet). So the morning was just crankyness. Then at my parents house he was just crazy hyper, running around everywhere! then we took a nap around 4:30 and at 7 went to jakes parents house. Ty didnt want to eat dinner and didnt want to open presents either. He just sat and watched a movie.
You would think that christmas would be fun for kids, but because ty has to go so many places he is just so exahusted and doesnt care really. I feel really bad for him, he should get to enjoy it.

Other then ty's 45 meltdowns durring the day christmas was really good. The family time was good and so was the food.

Also i feel like i'm getting closer to jakey recently, maybe it's the holidays or maybe its because we're getting married in freaking like 75 days, but whatever it is, it is wonderful! : )

maybe this is a miracle in disguise

So i have decided to quit my job. And i think it is going to be one of the best decisions ever. hopefully. lol

It basically comes down to this: a couple girls from my office and i went to the only woman on the executive team because we felt that we were being discriminated against from our boss because we are women. Then the next day our CEO and my boss called a meeting with our whole department and said that their were people creating rumors around the office that were complete 'crap' and that if we didnt like our job we should quit because they have a line of people waiting to take our jobs. Yeah, i dont know what planet they are from but that was illegal. Nobody talked to us about our feelings or tried to resolve it, they just threatened our jobs...

And then today our boss (who i have the problem with) decided that maybe he should talk to us. Then when we told him that we felt we were being treated un-fairly and that someone should have talked to us about it and that it was illegal what they did, he turned around and said, "well i could fire you guys right now because your hair is not professional today." (our hair were in pony-tails today). We got extremely mad at him and he said, "it's in the employee handbook that you have to look professional." I buy expensive clothes to go to work in and dress extremely professional, in my opinion. But when he said he would fire me because of my hair i lost all of my respect for him.

However, i'm looking for a part-time job on off hours so ty doesnt have to go to daycare and i could spend all day with him. The thing with this though is that he will probably sleep at Jame's, which i honestly dont like at all. But i think it will be worth it if i get to spend all day with him : )
I think i wrote a blog about this a couple weeks ago. I never see Ty, it is sooooo stupid! The world should make it easier for families.

There is a job that i am interested in already, it's Mon-Fri 6pm-midnight, 30 hours a week but pays as much as i get now p/h, and we would actually have more money then working full time because ty wouldn't go to daycare, and we wouldn't have to pay that ridiculous bill!! We shall see!

it's official

- i am officially obsessed with Twilight...
I have never liked a book (series) and movie, so much in my life! I am very surprised at myself honestly, i never thought i would like something that includes vampires and ware wolves it's so nerdy. But i guess i like it for the love story, it's so cute.

- It's officially 3 months to our wedding (!!!!!!!!)
It's so crazy! in 3 months i will be married to the most wonderful man in the world.

- i officially want to move..
i dont know if we will, but i cannot live in one place for more then a year and a half, we've been here a year and one week so i think it's about time to start looking...i dont know though, this house may be good for a while. i just need a change.

- my department is officially under appreciated at work
we had our work Christmas party last night and it was very obvious how important my department is to everyone else in the company. Everyone there says that it is all about the sales. The sales department which is about 70% of the company are way more appreciated then we are and it is complete shit. I mean, i love my job, it has to be the best job i've ever had (so far) but the sales people go out there a lot and lie to people then we have to be the ones to defend their lying and we get no recognition for that. I understand that in every company the sales people bring in the bacon, but if we werent there then then our company wouldnt be able to work either.

-i'm officially ready for Christmas...
i have had peppermint mocha's up the yin yang, gone shopping on black Friday, put up (1/2 of) the Christmas tree, bought $100 worth of peppermint scented bath and body works stuff, and bought cheese from hickory farms.

i dont know what this is about...

Has anyone noticed gas prices? They rock! I may be showing how young I am right now, but I have never driven with gas prices this low before. . . it’s cool.

I have had such a fun week. I know that I just said in my last blog that I never have a girls night out, but the burtons were in town so I went out to dinner and a movie with them. We saw Changeling and it was probably one of the saddest movies ever, if you are a mom don’t go and see this. It was especially bad because it was James’ night with ty and so Ty wasn’t home for me to see him after the movie. I cant even imagine losing ty and then finding out that he might have been murdered and nobody helping me to find him. Holy smokes. Angelina Jolie did a great job though. Then on T-day I took Jake to see Twilight (again)! Then we had dinner at my grandma’s, it had to be one of the best t-days ever, it is usually really boring, but my grandma had a Wii and so my whole family played that for several hours, it was fun, but ty didn’t like other people playing. Then we went to the Rogers’ house and had dinner there too. Jakes family always goes around the table and says what they are thankful for, it is cute but it is so awkward! It’s like everyone is thankful for each other, which is obvious but if you don’t say it it’s like you don’t care about them, so everyone goes around and says the same thing. It is really nice though and I’m glad that they want to share that every year. On Friday I went shopping super early, I went to Kohls and I thought it opened at 5 but it opened at 4 so I was an hour late, because I was an hour late I stood in line for 45 minutes to check out! If you can picture Kohls, they have two check out things on either side of the store, well they two lines went all the way to the back of the store and met in the middle!! Ahh! And I dint have a cart or bag, so I held all my stuff, and my arms literally hurt for the next 2 days. Then I went to work and decorated our office, then went to get ty at school and went shopping with him! Then went shopping later that day with Jakey! Woot woot! On Saturday we went to the car show, it was fun, jake has never been there before but I love going so it was good, it was in the new civic center, they did a great job and had no problem spending as much of our tax dollars as they could.

Writing these blogs always make me think about how much I don’t have Tyler. I almost always write about things that I do when I don’t have ty because when I do have ty we like to stay home to spend time with each other, or we go to Chucky Cheese, and nobody wants to hear about that. So anyways, last week I calculated how much time I actually have Tyler and I had a reality check of how horrible our world is. I did the math based on hours he is awake because that is the time I have to teach him about the world and such…so ty spends 60% of his waking hours at day care, 24% with me and 16% with James. (Of course I would have him way more if I counted the time he slept) I thought that this was maybe because Ty splits his time between me and James, but even if we didn’t do that I would still only have him 40% of the time. Then I thought that maybe I work too much, but I work 40 hrs a week, that is completely normal. When I realized the amount of time that is passing where I could be out with Ty instead of working for money just so it could be thrown away to bills I swear I almost quit my job.

I wrote a bunch more, but decided I was venting too much. I just think society needs to put family above money and make it easier to stay home with your family the first couple years, and if they can’t or for some reason don’t want to then daycare needs to be cheaper, I mean I could pay for an apartment and utilities in that apartment with the amount of money I give the daycare.