So Ty woke up and said his head hurt, and then he puked...and then he was laying in bed because he was really tired, and then he puked again...then he went back to sleep... poor baby. he is always sick. He will be OK though.
But what i really wanted to write about was the text message i got this morning...It was from the girlfriend of James (my baby's daddy, my best friend etc.) It said that they were engaged...Immediately my heart stopped and i thought, "what the fuck?!?!?!"....I have so many mixed emotions going on with this and it is kind of hard for me to deal with. Let me first off start by saying that there are absolutely no romantic feelings between me and him, that is gone, so this is not that type of issue. But we have been through so much together it's unbelievable. He has been my best friend for almost 8 years, i tell him pretty much everything, i know him better then almost anyone, and we keep each other in check.
2 years ago he went to rehab, because he had a problem, and when he came back our friendship was the strongest, bestest relationship ever. Then he started dating Katie (his now fiance) and everything was OK, but then for some reason she did not like us hanging out, at all. Which is kind of understandable, i mean she is a girl. But then it got ridiculous and pretty much everyone didn't like each other, stupid. And James' and my relationship fizzled away. And it kind of put me in a really bad place, he is a big part of my life and i feel like he was taken away for a period of time. Not because he was dating someone else and spending time with her, but because our friendship was no longer a priority at all, he didn't give a shit. But then they broke up and i was kind of happy, but he was really sad, I tried not to see it but he was. Then they got back together and it seemed like all of there problems were getting better, therefor my problems with him were getting better. So now i think we are in a place that everyone can feel comfortable with each other, and that is good. But i cant help but feel that if they do get married i will loose him as a friend forever, like i almost did before. Right now our friendship bonding only happens in e-mail conversations at work, because we cannot hang out with out a big scene, but it works for now.
She actually does a lot of good for him, she knows how to raise kids and live on her own so she is helping him with all of that. I guess it's just because he is a part of my family and it's one of those things that you think nobody is ever good enough for them... that is how i feel i guess. but from being kind of upset this morning, and talking it out now, ultimately i am happy for him because he is the one who proposed, so its not like this is a set up. he likes her so i need to be supportive...which i am trying to be.
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