lame...

I am so excited that tomorrow is Friday and I don’t have to work on Monday. Thank God! I love my job like no other but certain people at my office are really getting on my nerves. It is like a tiny high school in here, everyone always fights with each other and is so fake. It is really lame. We are out of high school, grow up. The only thing different is that it is not high school drama like ‘you stole my boy friend’ it’s like ‘you’re sleeping with the boss and being treated unfairly, I hate you.’ Oh well, what are you going to do?

My love...

I am excited...Gossip Girl starts in one week! Next Monday! woot woot! I am in love with that show. I have never really watched a show religiously but this is definitely one worth obsessing over.

The End.

bling bling problems...

so this weekend i found out that the store Jake got my engagement ring is going bankrupt and is shutting down. They said that my warranty and everything is going away too...I immediately went in to a panic mode, calling them going to other stores, talking to supervisors and managers and even talking to there legal department at corporate. Unfortunately there looks like there is nothing i can do. There is another jewelery company that is doing the same thing and you can file a claim as a customer as part of the bankruptcy and potentially get a refund but i cannot find out how to do that with them. Probably because they are completely done there is nothing left of them. . . i don't know though i am pissed.

i know a lot of people choose to upgrade their rings on there 25th anniversary or whenever but i never thought i would do that, Jake got me this beautiful perfect ring and i want to wear it forever, i don't want another ring. But the problem is that the tiny 57 diamonds on my ring keep popping out and i don't want to have to keep taking them to a different store and keep paying for them to replace it, we would eventually spend more money on fixing it then it cost. The whole situation sucks and no matter what other people think, i think it would be best in the long run to get a whole new ring and put this one safe away in a box before anything happens to it. I am still obviously trying to research what to do, but so far no luck. I told Jake that we would decide what to do in the next week or two.

oooo la la

so i got my feelings hurt by a certain friend who not knowingly dissed my cheap sheets, so i dragged jake along to the store and got some satin sheets. they are very nice... : )

fun shmum

I got my wedding dress on Saturday! yeah! Everyone went with me, i think you are usually suppose to only bring a couple people but i brought 6. I wanted everyone to be there, i don't know why, but i felt like i couldnt leave anyone out. All my bridesmaids met each other and it wasn't that bad, no fighting or anything so that is good. I decided that i dont really like being the bride, i dont like all the attention on me and i dont like telling people what to do. It stinks telling someone else that i dont like their dress, or that i want something a certian way even if they dont like it. It's really an akward situation and i know that it is only the beginning. But when they get married i will happily go along with what they want : )

I think i am starting to have a social life

i am having more of a social life lately. . . it's kind of cool. I think i am coming to terms that Ty has to go to James' house once in a while so they can have a relationship and that it is ok for me to do stuff when i don't have ty. He only has them every-other weekend but before Jake and i just stayed home and did nothing but go to movies and be homebodies, which i love. But recently our weekends have been packed of things to do with other people! it's freaking exciting! i feel like i am actually 21. This weekend we did the whole volleyball thing, woot woot. Then we went to the Salt River with Nicole and Mike. It was really fun, and beautiful! i did not think it would be that fun but i am deff. doing that again. this weekend is going to be the best weekend ever because i get to go wedding dress shopping!!!!!!!! oh man! i am so excited!! I cant even explain, yeah! We are doing some stuff with the Burton's too and then i am going out with my co-workers too. and we're probably buying another computer this weekend too....
The only thing that sucks is that we don't get to see our movies. Jake and i love movies and we watch them all the time, it's like our hobby. but the last month or two we have been too busy. we have yet to see:
- batman
- mama mia
- sisterhood of the traveling pants 2
- swing vote
- pineapple express

I think we might hit 3-4 of those this weekend because i am going crazy not seeing batman wtf...

the Olympics are on, i think Jake is already going crazy..Olympics are big in my family, kind of like Disney. We have been to 2 Olympics and they were awesome. This is the first time they have been on since we have been dating and i want to watch everything and make him watch it with me so he will get interested too. I know people generally watch gymnastics, basketball and maybe swimming and those are wonderful. But i like watching almost everything. Badminton, diving, table tennis (intense), everything really. It's so exciting and amazing! we got a DVR just for the Olympics on Friday and i am in love. : )

another bad day...when will they go away??

today is also a bad day. i am having bad days a lot recently. . . Ty is home from the hospital and that is wonderful. Everything went really well but exactly opposite of what i thought. He was fine going in to the surgery but when he was out he wouldn't drink anything! we had to stay longer because of that, but as soon as he heard that he could leave after he started drinking he got to it. I am more exhausted then i can ever remember. I am up with ty about every couple of hours to give him medicine, or a drink or just to make sure he is breathing ok. I haven't slept more then like 4 hours at a time in the last 3 days and it sucks.

(kind of graphic stuff below)
When ty got out of surgery on our way to see him in recovery, there were like 6 doctors around his bed, (usually there is only one nurse) let me tell you my heart stopped, and i stopped. I didn't want to go by the bed, i didn't know what was happening or why they were surrounding him, doctors don't just stand around. So after i realized that thinks might be ok i kept went towards the bed and saw that he was alive at least. But the doctors said he was having some trouble breathing, which again freaked me out, i felt like i shouldn't be there for some reason and i just wanted to back off until they made sure he was ok. in surgery they pierced ty's tongue with a string and tied the string through his tongue so if his tongue blocked his airway they could pull the string and make his tongue stick out so he could breathe...it was really sad, i was not expecting that. He also had blood running out the side of his mouth...it's kind of expected since he just had surgery in his throat but as a parent it was really disturbing. That is when i lost it, i was just like a big baby crying everywhere. I get really embarrassed when i do that, James was with me and i just felt like a looser.

So, it was also jakey's b-day, what a sucky day. He just hung out at the hospital all day and i kind of ignored him because i was more focused on ty. And at the end of the day he had to go home and i stayed with ty. We've only spent one other night separated since we moved in together over 2 years ago so it sucked. He tested me at 2:30 in the am to tell me that he has pink eye...Ughhh! So he stayed home from work the next day but couldn't come to the hospital either because of the pink eye, he then discovered that he was also sick, he had a fever and stuff. So that sucked too! When we got released from the hospital we couldn't go home because ty cannot get sick, so we spent the night at James' mom's house away from Jake, again. I feel so bad for him, i cant explain, but it's what's best for ty unfortunately. He feels better today so we will probably go home, but jake might sleep on the couch.

Ty is doing a lot better this morning, his little voice sounds different and that is kind of sad but it is all for the better. He breathes funny because he kind of has to learn how to re-breathe, so it is a little scary but everything is good so far.

tomorrow. . .

Tomorrow Ty is having his 4th surgery. I would like to say that because it is his 4th it is easy/easier but that is not true. In fact it’s almost harder. He is older and he is starting to understand what is happening. It’s kind of a feeling you can’t describe unless you’ve been there, kind of like when you see your baby for the first time, but this is not happy, it’s sad. I’m not really scared about the actual surgery, I think he will be ok with that, naturally I am scared about it because of everything that can happen but it is not one of my main concerns. What I hate about the whole thing is how he feels after the surgery. He cries this heartbreaking cry and I know that there is nothing I can do to help him except for hold him and try to be strong for him. I feel like he is so mad at me for making him go with some strange nurse and then they probably hold him down to knock him out and then when he wakes up he has owies and no mommy. I know that obviously I am not doing anything wrong by that but how do you explain that to a 3 year old? And he has to stay in the hospital and I know that being cooped up in a hospital bed for a day or two is not going to be easy.

On a brighter note, I made an appointment to go and try on wedding dresses!! I am soooo beyond excited for that! And tomorrow is Jakey’s b-day! We will be at the hospital so that sucks…

love love

i love jakey. he is awesome.