Tomorrow Ty is having his 4th surgery. I would like to say that because it is his 4th it is easy/easier but that is not true. In fact it’s almost harder. He is older and he is starting to understand what is happening. It’s kind of a feeling you can’t describe unless you’ve been there, kind of like when you see your baby for the first time, but this is not happy, it’s sad. I’m not really scared about the actual surgery, I think he will be ok with that, naturally I am scared about it because of everything that can happen but it is not one of my main concerns. What I hate about the whole thing is how he feels after the surgery. He cries this heartbreaking cry and I know that there is nothing I can do to help him except for hold him and try to be strong for him. I feel like he is so mad at me for making him go with some strange nurse and then they probably hold him down to knock him out and then when he wakes up he has owies and no mommy. I know that obviously I am not doing anything wrong by that but how do you explain that to a 3 year old? And he has to stay in the hospital and I know that being cooped up in a hospital bed for a day or two is not going to be easy.
On a brighter note, I made an appointment to go and try on wedding dresses!! I am soooo beyond excited for that! And tomorrow is Jakey’s b-day! We will be at the hospital so that sucks…
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Wow that does suck. Just remember that in 10 years, he will seriously thank you for doing this for him. Poor Ty.
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